Instant of recall

A picture is worth a thousand words, they say. A single image, glimpsed for only the briefest of moments, can be enough to bring to the surface a flood of emotions so effectively suppressed for so long. Which state is better? Is it better to suppress the anger and pain, to try to get past it in the hopes that better will come? There is no talking through it. The past can't be changed. Can it ever really be overcome?
Each time this memory is brought to the fore, all I can do is try to rationalize it, try to reason that the situation was such that it was all but destined to occur, but it's hard not to recognize that little - if anything - has really changed. If nothing has changed, how do I move forward?

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Kat said…
wow that was like you were reading my mind...been struggling withthis myself, starting with a new therapist this week, and well I just keep telling myself what doesn't kill me will make me stronger,,wondering if this is true
April 11, 2008 at 10:27 PM
Raine said…
hmmm...when i thought i was alone i bumped into this blog.. same feeling here.. :(
April 12, 2008 at 9:38 PM
Goddess said…
Thanks so much, both of you. Sometimes the most important thing is just knowing that we're not alone in what we are feeling....
April 12, 2008 at 10:57 PM
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