"I want, I want, I want ... but that's crazy"

Tuesday, April 29, 2008

What's your slogan?




Your Slogan Should Be



Rachel. Champagne for the Brain.

Link exchange, anyone?

I'm looking to expand my link list, and I've stumbled across a lot of great blogs out there via Entrecard and elsewhere. Anyone interested in exchanging links? Drop me a comment and let me know........

When the wind blows...

"Wind's blowin' me in another direction. Ain't no use arguin' with the wind." - Dorothy Dandridge as "Carmen" in Carmen Jones

Sometimes it's hard to accept the fact that you just have to accept the facts. There are things in life that - no matter how hard you try - you simply cannot control. At this moment, I have to find the strength and courage to let go and let life unfold out of my hands knowing that I have done all I can. Time to stop arguing with the wind.

Monday, April 28, 2008

PPP: Sweet deal on BDUs!

LA Police Gear is offering a great deal on classic BDU Pants. The pants are made of a 60/40 cotton/poly blend that feels like cotton, but with better color retention and less shrinkage. The military spec BDU pants are being offered at a special price of $16.99 in several color options.
Features
Self pocketing for extra durablitiy
Keyhole button hole
Reinforced bar tacks on the flaps and belt loops
6 Pocket Design
2 Front slash pockets and 2 rear inserted pockets with snag proof pocket flaps.
2 bellowed 3 pleated cargo pockets with drain holes and snag proof button flaps.
Fused Flaps
2 Adjustable side tabs
Reinforced seat and knee patches
4 Button fly closure
Belt loops with 2 1/4" wide opening
Nylon Drawstring leg ties
Felled inseam, outseam and seat seam

Sunday, April 27, 2008

Btw

You know, I'm relatively new to the blogosphere, so I joined BlogCatalog, and later Entrecard, to allow me to easily browse among other bloggers' pages. I haven't been doing it long, but you know what I've already discovered? There are actually lots of bright, clever, interesting, intelligent and witty people out there ..... I've missed you in my life. Thanks for writing.

Saturday, April 26, 2008

Pop-Tarts and cheap wine

I have found myself at home on a Saturday night with no children. This almost never happens. And although this rare event might seem to be a blessing, what it does is remind me that I have no life. And here on my little corner at the intersection of Nowhere and Where The F**k Is That?!?!, I don't even have the option of a life.

So, tonight for me is:
laundry
music
cheap wine
Harry Potter
Pop-Tarts
the Dean Koontz novel I have been unable to finish for some reason

And as an aside, I love logicians.....sigh......

Just in case you missed some of today's top news (some serious...some not so much...):

Sharpton vows to 'close this city' after officer acquittals - I pray this remains peaceful.
Clinton Tries a Different Debate Debate - What do you think of seeing these two in a Lincoln-Douglas kind of debate today? Debating is not Obama's strength, but this format would be interesting. Hmmm... (Don't miss the comments at the end!!)
Florida lawmakers consider bill banning ornamental testicles - I wanna read that bill.......sooooo badly.
Why it's time to dump the Web 2.0 sobriquet once and for all - Admit it...this was the first thing on your mind when you woke up this morning...
Torch protests planned for Seoul - I say, "Good. Keep it up. But, please, show a little dignity."
Bush tweaks candidates at correspondents' dinner hehe...Cheney's dungeon...hehe
Newlywed Gary Coleman brings marital woes to `Divorce Court' - that would be the same marriage that they kept secret for six months because they wanted to avoid publicity.

Speaking of news stories, if the situation were exactly the same would Brad Pitt have been sentenced to a three-year term in prison for the non-violent, misdemeanor offense of failing to file tax returns on earnings of $38.5 million? Just wondering......

Friday, April 25, 2008

Care for a swim?

"It was the Law of the Sea, they said. Civilization ends at the waterline. Beyond that, we all enter the food chain, and not always right at the top." - Hunter S. Thompson

It seems rather neat to draw such a distinction, but in reality, civilization is an illusion anyway. We're all in the food chain, and we can't all be on top. It's the Law of the Sea of Humanity.

This so-called civilization has the same beautiful but deadly anemones. It's got sponges. It's got worms. It's got seemingly brilliant dolphins, clever seals and instinctively predatory sharks. It's got some who are just trying to blend into the sand and not be noticed, and some who live their whole lives in a shell because - let's face it - they're just too delectable a morsel if we can ever break into it, and some who just can't resist dancing atop the water just for the attention (even if it might end up getting 'em harpooned). Forget the waterline. We're all just trying to stay alive. But unlike life under the sea, we get to choose where we belong.

Wednesday, April 23, 2008

I decided to check it out

I try to post here every day, if for no other reason than so daily readers have something new to look at. Most days it's no problem - I've no shortage of opinions, even if they're kind of pointless. But there are days when I just can't seem to think of anything to sink my teeth into (or even babble aimlessly on.....). Anyway, I stumbled across references to this payperpost.com site that lets you choose your opportunities and write only about the things you want, and get paid for it.
Hey, what the heck? Let's give this thing a try, shall we?
Well, I went and checked out the site, and the first thing that struck me was that there are offers available to write about things that actually do interest me. (They always say that, but it never really is, ya know?) And, the pay's not too darn bad either. :) Ok, we'll try this out.
This is my first shot at this, so I'm checking it out to see how it works. I'll fill you in as I go along.
As I see it though, I'll get to only write about the things I want to write about, and every once in a while, somebody's going to pay me to do it. It seems almost like work, but without the unpleasant "workiness" of it. :)

If you want to get paid to blog check it out for yourself!



Tuesday, April 22, 2008

Misfire

I should be completely caught up in coverage of the Pennsylvania primary today, but I haven't even turned to a news channel yet. I've finished my morning work. I'm in a mellow mood with a nice java overbuzz, and I am strangely content. I can't help thinking something bad is on the horizon. I don't get to be happy. That's when bad things happen. And I don't even know WHY I am happy. Well, THAT'S enough to make me paranoid.....
Primary coverage is sure to sweep me up at some point today. Hope so - this whole love thing has got me completely distracted....

Sunday, April 20, 2008

"When everything's made to be broken, I just want you to know who I am"

(Lyrics from "Iris" by Goo Goo Dolls)

They say you can tell everything you need to know about a person if you can spend five minutes alone with their iPod. Well, I don't own an iPod but my nifty little mp3 player will do just fine. The following is the soundtrack of my evening courtesy of my trusty (now that it's functional again) mp3 player set on shuffle (whatever comes up - not the full catalog - this is unedited and unaltered....just the way they pop up). No TV tonight - no exposure to politics or anything else in the outside world (not true...I'm always online.) But anyway........ Let's see what the universe - or my mp3 player anyway - has in store for me this evening:

Take It Easy - The Eagles (by default, this is always the first track to play - not on purpose)
Show Me Heaven - Maria McKee (smile for the memory)
Counting Blue Cars - Dishwalla
Kodachrome - Paul Simon (always love this song)
Jah Glory - Bajja Jedd (new addition - I like)
If You Could Only See - Tonic (last heard at the Spike 15 mins. or so too late...)
While My Guitar Gently Weeps - The Beatles
American Pie - Don McLean
Over Come What May - Fiona (*smiiiiiiiiiiiile*)
Easy Skanking - Bob Marley & the Wailers
Born to be Wild - Steppenwolf
On My Mind - Da'Ville fea. Sean Paul
Inside Out - Eve 6
Penny Lane - The Beatles
I Shot the Sheriff - Bob Marley & the Wailers
Bright Lights - Matchbox Twenty (*god*, Rob Thomas really does good things for me.......)
Anything 4 You - Jahmali
Could I Be You - Matchbox Twenty (mmmmore.....)
Be With You - Mary J. Blige (yay Mary J.!)
Ventura Highway - America
Sons of Garvey - Joe Higgs
Iris - Goo Goo Dolls (damn, what a song....)
Lonely No More - Rob Thomas (still working for me...)
Until Death Do Us Part - Aidonia
Hero - Nickelback
Stuttering - Ben's Brother (so sweet....)
Soul - Matchbox Twenty
I Am The Walrus - The Beatles
Sunshine Superman - Donovan (this is seriously one of my favorite songs in the world!!)
Everlong - Foo Fighters (I think I will always love this song.....)
One Love - Bob Marley & the Wailers
Lovefool - The Cardigans
Far Away - Nickelback (way to kill me......)
Give Praise - Jah Roots
Suddenly I See - KT Tunstall
Under the Bridge - Red Hot Chili Peppers
Someone to Love - Stephen Marley
Love Song - Sara Bareilles (I'm loving this song....)
Tequila Sunrise - The Eagles
Love Sound - Beres Hammond


Time for bed.......That was just a little taste anyway.....Know me any better yet?

Thursday, April 17, 2008

It's a matter of priority

Hmmm, seems America's got her priorities in order. Last night's presidential debate between Barack Obama and Hillary Clinton was the most watched debate of this presidential campaign. No big surprise there. Lots of stuff has been going the past six weeks, and we've all been waiting for those two to have to be face-to-face when confronted by all of it.

No, that's not the interesting part.

What's interesting is that the first half of the two-hour debate was No. 1 in its time slot (the 8 to 9 pm hour), it fell to third place in its second half (the 9 to 10 pm hour). What show won the 9 to 10 slot? American Idol, of course. So a big chunk of the audience tuning in to the debate that would clarify the issues involving how this country will be run for the next four years turned the channel, to watch American Idol. Not even the American Idol performances - it was the results show. So, even though the outcome in the results show occurs in the last minute or two of the show, people turned off the debate to turn on Idol.

Top that with the fact that Idol's ratings tied with its lowest in five years. The lowest rated Idol in five years and its viewership was more than double that of the presidential debate - the first half of the presidential debate - the half of the presidential debate that was the MOST watched one this campaign. Hmmm....

Yep, America's got her priorities all figured out.

Wednesday, April 16, 2008

It's debatable....

Greetings, from the All-American girl munching on corn dogs and sipping a glass of cheap American Rose wine! (I almost feel an urge to "yeehaw!") It's another late night for me, but won't be as it has been. I've been absent the past few days - partly because I've been in the grips of a brutal case of insomnia. I finally managed to get a couple of hours' sleep this evening after getting about an hour or so a night for the past three nights. Even that little bit seems to have worked wonders, and I believe I'll be able to break the cycle tonight.

I wish I could have gotten some sleep sooner. I'd love to get really deep into tonight's Democratic debate, but unfortunately, I just don't have the presence of mind or strength to do it. I can't resist making a few comments though.

First of all, I thought the clear "winner" in this debate was Obama, although I believe that Clinton held her own. She had some serious weak points, but I think she's still the likely winner in the upcoming Pennsylvania primary. I don't agreed with it - of course - but purely objectively speaking, I think she will win it still, even with Obama's debate win tonight. That's just Pennsylvania, by the way. I still think Obama will win the nomination. Hope so. I've got a history of picking winners in these things, ya know. Stick with me. :) (Now on sports - that's another story....I'm a sports curse.....)

A few points I have to note from tonight's debate:

I knew going in that each of the "big" issues and controversies that have come up over the past six weeks would be addressed in this one - that includes Hillary's Bosnia sniper landing statements, Obama's Rev. Wright issues and Obama's more recent "bitter" and "clinging" comments, among others. The time that's passed has certainly given both of them time to figure out the best way to address these so-called issues, and I felt that played out fairly predictably tonight.

On the Bosnia thing, I've said it before - she lied. Either you're being shot at or you're not - and you don't "misremember" something like that. You don't get confused. She said she was being shot at and was in fear for her life - the facts have been shown otherwise. As definitive as that is, I suppose she did the best she could with it tonight. She's apologetic - of course not saying outright that she lied about it (I wouldn't expect her - or any presidential candidate - to come right out and say, "ok - I lied") - but there was only so much she could do here. I never trusted her sincerity - many more don't now - but there's not really all that much she can do to change that on this particular statement, anyway.

Obama reiterated well on the Rev. Wright scandal, yet again. This dead horse has been sufficiently beaten, I believe. He brought up a nice point about the old-school politicking that's been going on, and I think he nicely positioned himself above the pettiness of it. On the flag-pin non-issue too - opting for genuine demonstrations of his love and respect of country rather than relying on silly symbolism, he stood strong.

On the bitter and clinging controversy, he pulled that one out as well. It seemed clear to me what he was saying from the beginning, but of course it was spun out of control by the petty politicking of others. Small town Americans are bitter with the government. Yep. They don't believe that the federal government will solve their economic problems anymore, after being told time and time again that help was coming, while things just kept getting worse for the little guy. Yep - right again. Because the small town folks don't trust ANY politicians on those things, they opt instead to base their votes on OTHER core issues they believe in - like religion and gun rights and abortion and such - the things that they think might ACTUALLY be affected by their choices. I got that. Barack backed it up well tonight, and though Hillary continued to try to cling to her spin, she didn't pull it off.

There's more I'd like to go into - especially regarding Iraq and general election prospects, but I don't have the strength tonight. Maybe tomorrow if I'm still so inclined. For now, my pillow beckons......

Saturday, April 12, 2008

Just a little rant

How far should I go to try to convince someone of who I really am, when all they want to see of me is what they assume me to be? I addressed this previously in my entry Lose the Labels and Look for Yourself, but I still find myself in the same situation. I went on to try to clarify further in Oh, How Could You?, but still, here I am. I am still painted as the enemy. I am still somehow viewed as miniature Rush Limbaugh clone because I dared ASK if this person had actually listened to any of Limbaugh's broadcasts or read any of his books himself, or if his opinions had been formed based only on what had been presented about Limbaugh by third-party sources. I just ASKED. It didn't matter. Somehow that meant that I must agree with everything Limbaugh has ever said or believed (which is most definitely NOT true). I further exacerbated the situation by daring to suggest that Rush Limbaugh is NOT entirely wrong about everything. But I made a point of TRYING to clarify that NO ONE is entirely wrong on everything. He's got some things right. Believing this makes me inherently evil, apparently.

It doesn't matter that I also believe that Hillary Clinton has some things right. Barack Obama has some things right. Al Gore has some things right. George Bush (actually, both of 'em) has some things right. Jimmy Carter has some things right. Ronald Reagan had some things right. Ann Coulter has some things right. Al Franken has some things right. You get my point. At least, I hope you get my point. Apparently, some people don't.

I'm a firm believer in looking at EVERY side. I'm a firm believer in free speech. Just because I am willing to hear it doesn't mean I agree with it. And just because I agree with any part of it does not mean that I agree with all of it. Here's a bit of news: I've never known, heard, seen or even imagined ANY person on this earth with whom I agreed with everything. Here's something else: I don't believe that ANYONE has.

I was inspired to become a journalist by reading the works of Hunter S. Thompson. He so inspired me, in fact, that I had his personal logo tattooed on my ankle more than 15 years ago. That doesn't mean that I agreed with his positions on everything. Not even close.

Even peering through the rose-colored glasses of (relatively brief) history, I recognize that Ronald Reagan held many positions that I view as downright repugnant. I also recognize that many of his policies and beliefs were absolutely right and necessary for the particular period of history in which he came to power. He was absolutely the person NEEDED for the job at the time - for his policies as well as his public persona. I hold the same kind of belief now for a very different kind of candidate - Barack Obama. I believe that in this moment in time, he is absolutely NEEDED for the job. Does it mean that I agree with him on everything? Certainly not. But I do agree with him on some things.

I've been a political junkie my whole life, but I've never been a party-liner. I campaigned for Reagan in 1980. I was in second grade at the time. Through my precocious eyes then, and still now, I see that he did some good and important and VITAL things during his presidency. I didn't support the first Bush in office, and I think it must have been a period of relative political indifference for me, because I actually recall very little of it at all - except for my grandfather teaching my baby cousin to say, "Read my lips - no new taxes," on cue at family gatherings. I came of voting age in time to help put Bill Clinton into office (in fact, I recall being so enthralled by him in 1992 that I once said, "Hell, I'd have an affair with him too." I was 19 - he might have gone for it.) I backed him for his re-election as well, even though during the intervening period I was not only a member of College Republicans AND the ultra-conservative Young Americans for Freedom, I was even elected vice-president of YAF (although, I wasn't actually at the meeting at which I was elected, and I wasn't even aware I was in the running for the position). But still, in 1996, I was backing Clinton again. I backed George Bush in 2000 and again in 2004. I won't try to justify it, but I still believe it was the right thing at the time - and the alternatives were most definitely the WRONG things. And in this campaign, I am supporting Barack Obama. (You might note that during the entirety of my time as a legal voter, I have always ended up picking the winner - hoping that trend continues.) I think he's person we need right now. You might not agree with me, but you don't have to. I can respect differing opinions.

That's the end of my rant for tonight. Peace and love to all.

Friday, April 11, 2008

Instant of recall

A picture is worth a thousand words, they say. A single image, glimpsed for only the briefest of moments, can be enough to bring to the surface a flood of emotions so effectively suppressed for so long. Which state is better? Is it better to suppress the anger and pain, to try to get past it in the hopes that better will come? There is no talking through it. The past can't be changed. Can it ever really be overcome?
Each time this memory is brought to the fore, all I can do is try to rationalize it, try to reason that the situation was such that it was all but destined to occur, but it's hard not to recognize that little - if anything - has really changed. If nothing has changed, how do I move forward?

Thursday, April 10, 2008

Huh?

I'm going to take the remainder of the evening to scoop my chin off the floor.....watching the American Idol results ...... and sexy Australian Michael Johns is gone......whaaaa??

(To throw in a *little* political aside though, kudos to John McCain for his clever little dig at Simon Cowell there...and was it my imagination or did Barack Obama look kinda hot in that clip? Hmm....)

Wednesday, April 9, 2008

Perhaps they should try giving birth some time....

What do you suppose you get if you go to thesaurus.com and type in the word "weaker"? Well, I'll save you the trouble. You get this:

2 results for: weaker
1-2 of 2 results

Roget's New Millennium™ Thesaurus - Cite This Source - Share This
Main Entry: female
Part of Speech: noun
Definition: woman
Synonyms: amazon, babe, beauty, broad, cheesecake, chichi, cupcake, cutie, dame, doll, dowager, duchess, femme, filly, fox, frail, gal, gentlewoman, girl, hussy, kid, lady, madam, mama, matron, old bat, old lady, old woman, petticoat, piece, pinup, seductress, she, she-stuff, shrew, siren, sis, skirt, temptress, ten, tomato, weaker sex*, wench, wren
Antonyms: boy, male, man
Source: Roget's New Millennium™ Thesaurus, First Edition (v 1.3.1)
Copyright © 2008 by Lexico Publishing Group, LLC. All rights reserved.
* = informal or slang
Roget's New Millennium™ Thesaurus - Cite This Source - Share This
Main Entry: lady
Part of Speech: noun
Definition: woman
Synonyms: adult, babe, bag, baroness, bitch, broad, butterfly, contessa, countess, dame, doll, duchess, empress, female, gal, gentlewoman, girl, little woman, mama, mare, matron, missus, mistress, noblewoman, old bag, old lady, old woman, petticoat, princess, queen, queen bee, rib, squaw, sultana, weaker sex*
Antonyms: man
Source: Roget's New Millennium™ Thesaurus, First Edition (v 1.3.1)
Copyright © 2008 by Lexico Publishing Group, LLC. All rights reserved.
* = informal or slang


Let's begin by pointing out that "weaker," according to the geniuses at reference.com, is synonymous with "female" and "lady." Fine, we'll say that's an unfortunate result of the algorithm that matches the word "weaker" in the search only with the same word in the synonym for these terms - namely, the "weaker sex" term. Fine, that's an unfortunate quirk in programming.

Now, let's go beyond that and look at the synonyms DIRECTLY listed for "female." Definition - "woman." Ok - that makes sense, although it's not entirely accurate, as an infant female or female nonhuman could not be called a "woman" really. And the synonyms - those are even more outrageous. We have: amazon, babe, beauty, broad, cheesecake, shrew, tomato, hussy....well, you can look back up there and read them for yourself. And the synonyms DIRECTLY listed for "lady" - I'm sorry.....bag, bitch and queen bee? Note also that the ONLY one of any of the synonyms marked as slang is "weaker sex." Apparently, "piece" or "old bat" are acceptable formal substitutes for "female." What do you think about that?

The next time your teenager is writing a paper and says, "Hey mom, what's another word for 'female'?" think about it before you send them off to thesaurus.com.

Monday, April 7, 2008

It's all an optical illusion anyway

I've officially given up the sensory deprivation experiment, although it never really got started. I have a perfectly reasonable excuse though. A character from my past has reappeared in my life, and I wanted to firmly establish my presence in my present. It might just work out for the best this way after all.
I do still need my daily distractions, however, as I do not have the full access to my favorite addiction to fill my days. I've kept myself busy and productive with work and home, as well as my workout regimen. That could prove useful as well.
This is to be yet another brief entry, but I have some plans that I'm hoping to implement after this weekend is over, and my big work project is completed. Stay tuned!
In the mean time, contemplate this ........(click on the pic to view it full size)


Saturday, April 5, 2008

Induced insomnia

I thought that my sensory deprivation experiment would lead to me getting some more sleep, but it has not proven to be so. I still find myself staying busy until the wee hours of the morning, not remotely touched by sleepiness, while the daylight hours find me dragging myself through my required activities. Tonight, I've been so preoccupied by my music project that yet again I find myself awake well beyond a reasonable bedtime. Ah well, at least I don't have to work tomorrow - for a change. And something's distracting me from politics - for a change. But my mind and heart still dwell in another place....

Thursday, April 3, 2008

My music is back!

I'm back in the music today!

Back in January I decided to finally upgrade my old mp3 player (which is still a great little player, but with far too little memory - expandable though.....but anyway...) to a combo mp3/mp4 that I could use for music and videos, and carry around to show off pics of my kids and my sweetie. I was unwilling to spend the insanely high prices demanded by Apple for their cute little iPods, so I went on the hunt for a sleek little unit with all the bells and whistles for a considerably lower price. I found one - from a company in Hong Kong. It seemed to be a bargain, but I wasn't sure I should take the chance. I searched for reviews, and what little I could find seemed to point to it being a decent little product. I bit the bullet and ordered it. I got the player, and it seemed pretty great. No instructions were included, so it took some experimenting to get it all figured out. (I still have no idea how to work the games that were included.) I put some songs on it, but not nearly the contents of my massive music library saved on my computer. I just wanted to test it out and get the hang of it first. Sounded good. I was pleased.
Well, a few days after I got the player, I was experimenting with some new music software on my computer. The program had one nifty little button that allows the user to copy files to a device then clear the folder automatically. Unfortunately, the program was saved within the same folder as most of the contents of my music library. (Some was saved elsewhere, as I was in the process of reorganizing it all, but the vast majority was lost.) And with one click of a button, the entire contents - nearly 2,000 songs - were irretrievably wiped out. Gone. Kaput. I've begun the long and arduous process of replacing it. (I also dumped that software, so I will NEVER AGAIN hit that button!)
Life got a little hectic around that time, so I didn't spend much time with the music or the music player for a little while. When I got back to it a few weeks later, I found that the power switch on my new mp3/mp4 player wouldn't function. It wouldn't power up. I tried plugging it into the computer, and it worked fine. But when I unplugged it, it turned off and wouldn't come back on. I was able to retrieve the songs saved on it back to my computer, but the player seemed worthless otherwise.
In what seemed a long shot, I contacted customer service. I explained the problem and asked if there was any way to get the unit replaced without having to pay the international postage that would cost nearly as much as a new unit. Much to my surprise - they responded....and within less than 48 hours. I was highly impressed, as I've dealt with reputable American companies that don't even bother to reply at all. Anyway, they said if I wanted to replace the unit under the warranty, I would have to pay for the postage - BUT - they offered a possible solution. I tried it out tonight, and lo and behold....IT WORKED! So my nifty little bargain is fully functional again, and I was inspired enough to spend a good portion of the evening working again on my music library.

(The work on the library also served as a handy distraction in my sensory deprivation experiment - until I realized that I seemed to be amassing a disproportionate number of reggae songs... At least it was easier on my bank account than shoe shopping.)

I also managed today to fix the garbage disposal that's been on the fritz for a week and clear the clogged drain that had resulted from it. (Yes, I CAN do anything) I even got in a good workout. So all in all, pretty productive day....

Wednesday, April 2, 2008

Sensory deprivation ... failure

Taking a break from politics tonight....

I am early into a ... well, let's call it a sensory deprivation experiment, and, already, it's not looking good. My problem is not that it's been too hard on me. My problem is that I keep cheating on it. A little bit. I took down most of the pictures, except those that would be too hard to restore (digital) - and I caught myself peeking today. I took down the links to all the Web sites that would expose me to my certain addiction (for want of a better word), but I caught myself searching for odds and ends and images anyway - but only briefly....really. I meant to cut the ties. I really did. But the hold is still too strong. And the little reminders are everywhere.
I'm not discouraged though. It took me a while to quit smoking too, but I got the hang of it eventually. And this particular addiction break was never meant to be a permanent thing anyway. In a way, I think it was intended to prepare me - at least a little - for the day when it is a permanent thing. A test of my survival skills. You see, the thing about this particular addiction is that it's not something that's bad for me. It's been wonderful for me. It's something that I want (need?) much more. And there's no substitute. Not for me.
I'm sick today, too, so I suppose it's natural that I would be seeking out that which always gives me the most comfort. Maybe I'll feel better tomorrow - then I can try again. (But I'll probably cheat....)

Last time....I promise.....

Yes - this is old news by this point. But this video is the best summary I've found of the evidence that Hillary Clinton did not just misspeak when she said she landed in Bosnia under sniper fire. She recently claimed that she misspoke and had been to 80 different places so it wasn't all that odd that she couldn't remember the specifics of one incident. So, does that mean she was under sniper fire somewhere else? As one member of the military stated, "You don't forget it when someone shoots at you."