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Monday, March 10, 2008

Just a little patience

Something about today had a strange kinda vibe. Did you ever have one of those days that on the surface appeared completely normal and nondescript, but something just felt *wrong* about it? That was me today. A big part of me is thinking that an upcoming trip just might spell the end of an "us" - or maybe the beginning of the end. No particular reason. There's just something that feels *wrong.* I guess I'll have to wait and see.
Yes, patience. At some point does patience become cowardice? Sometimes we just have to wait for something to come around, but do we reach a point when we are just waiting because we're afraid to actively go after it? Curious too.....that patience in one area of life can in some way seem to stoke a fire in another area. Ever notice how a stagnant period in a relationship can spur one on to attain new career achievements? Or vice versa. Are we trying to compensate for what we are lacking - as if we SHOULD have everything all at once? Or maybe it's all part of the ebb and flow of life, and it naturally tends that highs will occur in some areas as lows occur in others, and one's focus shifts and changes accordingly. If that is the case - that it is the natural order of things - should we stop fighting to have everything in life and just enjoy what we have while we have it? And sometimes we have to wait for another's ebb to meet our flow. How do we know when to stop waiting? To either chase the tide or go elsewhere?

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