I am going to stop thinking that I've got anything figured out. It seems even the smallest or simplest thing never goes the way I thought it would, so why on earth should I ever believe that something big is going to work the way I expected? I should forget the single-minded focus. Something's always going to come along to throw a wrench in the works. And expectations? Forget it. Fantasy? Just foolish. How about some realism? Even that's going to go haywire. Expect the unexpected. But then it's no big surprise. Expect disappointment? Yeah, probably most of the time. That's a little closer to the mark I think.
I got my hopes up. Always a mistake - even in the short term. So now there's something new on the horizon. Any real potential in it? Who knows? What's real anyway?